In January 2016 I made the decision to stop using topical steroid cream to treat the eczema I had endured since infancy. What followed wasn't a simple outbreak. My entire system collapsed. Swelling, oozing skin, nerve pain, the inability to regulate my own body temperature. And those were just the physical symptoms.
The mental and emotional pain were difficulties I hadn't anticipated and soon I became a hermit in my own home, unable to work or show up for the people I loved in the way that I wanted to.
The turning point came when I realized this crisis was forcing me to sit down and be quiet for the first time in my life. I had spent years chasing titles, achievements and external validation; living to a standard that equated my value to what I DID, rather than who I WAS. TSW stripped all of that away and demanded that I ask myself who I could be without the labels.
This is a vulnerable account of a decade-long health crisis that completely reshaped my identity and my life's mission...
It chronicles my journey through Topical Steroid Withdrawal, a debilitating condition that left me at times physically unrecognizable and forced me to retreat from the world I had carefully built.
This time of transition in my life often felt like it would never be over and I found myself letting go of the dreams and goals I had envisioned for myself and starting to accept that life may never look the same again.
But in those quiet moments, in the times alone, when only my thoughts were there to torment me and sometimes comfort me, a new truth began to form. Slowly at first, but over time I began to see that this struggle was truly a pivotal moment for me. It was a time to embrace that to truly heal, we must look deeply within ourselves to find the connection between our mind, body and spirit.
Anyone navigating through transition or upheaval in their life will find themselves in these pages. Those suffering from TSW who have felt dimissed by the medical establishment. People battling chronic illness or emotional hurt who need to know they are not alone. Even those who are looking for a roadmap to reconnect with their spirit and to live authentically to who they are.
Essential reading....extraordinary. Recommended for community and academic library collections in Biography/Memoir and Self-Help.
-Midwest Book Review
-Shelby
Allyson's memoir feels like a long journal entry or a letter written to a close friend. I enjoyed both her introspective reflections and her raw honesty.
-Virginia
The story line flows so easily throughout the book, it is hard to put down. I highly recommend!!"